2021 Wrap Up

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! (We are 17 hours in when I’m writing this at the moment and it feels miserable not happy but I guess this year has 364 more days and 7 hours to prove it’s worth).

Here are some things I did in 2021 and some things I’m going to change in 2022.

Broke friendships with many friends, made better ones.
Realised that when you text people back without emojis they get offended.
Realised being a perfectionist isn’t always the best, it’s best to cool off and relax at times.
Learned not to let other’s comments get to me, cause hater’s gonna hate so snakes and stones don’t hurt my bones anymore because people throw rocks at things that shine.
Decided to continue being Jack of all trades cause “A jack of all trades is a master of none, but oftentimes better than a master of one.”.
I didn’t post much in 2021 or work on my WIP, but I’m going to try in 2022.
I read 354 books in 2021, my goal is to read less (around 100 books) and focus on studies more this year.
I got obsessed with Taylor Swift last year, I plan to lessen my use of Taylor Swift puns, because I’M FEELING TWENTY TWO (yeah after this one, my friend PV made me a Swiftie, it’s nice to have a friend)
I irritated a lot of my friends by rhyming like an idiot in our normal convos, not gonna lie, I rhymed a lot last year and it was fun, and my new hobby is to rhyme unnecessarily (won’t do that now because it’s annoying).
I also realised that I can be so casually cruel in the name of being honest but the thing with people is that sometimes we just get lost in translation.
Felt different emotions which I never felt before (LIKE BETRAYAL, BETRAYAL AND MORE BETRAYAL).
I need to study seriously in 2022.
I tried bullet journaling, it went splendidly (for 4 days :|).
Ooo and I went back to school offline for few months, that was fun.
I reconnected with my old friends. I also watched friends, it’s a great series.
By the way I’m starting a series on equality and some minor patriarchal things we don’t notice in our daily lives (like Taylor said f the patriarchy).
At the end of 2021 I got really obsessed with Tokyo Drift, that, still hasn’t changed.
And so many more things that just slipped my mind but meh.
And I’m really really going to try my best to post because I have SOOO MANY IDEAS for posts and I bet you think about me when I don’t post (I’m going to try to keep that the last the Taylor Swift pun of this post, I need to calm down).

AND THAT’S IT
I NEED TO JUST STOP

I also did a short series on my instagram about 3 things that I felt once, just in 2021.

And yeah that’s a wrap. I wish you all a verryyyyyy happy new year and I wish you the best for this year, I hope this one is the best one yet. (And not 2020 too)

I am a star

I’m a star

I am burning, I am writhing and a part of me is dying, the innocent one, the little kid.

I’m powerful, and my light shines even after years.
I’m a star. 

I am integral for life, and under my light you all hide. 

No I’m not big, but that just means I’ll shine longer. Yet I’m not small, nor is my shine or my glow, you aren’t close enough to see me shine and you never will be.
I’m a star.

I’m so far away you’ll never reach me, you’ll never know me well enough.

I’m a star.
I am not pretty because I’m raging and burning, and I AM ON FIRE.
I’m not meant to be pretty but I do so in your eyes, for that beauty, a sign of my strength and sedulous work.

You’ll study me like the mysterious fireball that I am aeons later. 

You see my past and reflect on it, dreaming about my present and my future, a pity you won’t see it, you say. You won’t be there.

I am a star.

FIlled with hydrogen, my words can make you dizzy and lose control.

I am a star. 

I’m filled with helium and you know, I’m deathly.

I am a star

What you see is a flicker of what I was, a twinkling past.

I am a star.

I look beautiful to you, even in my darkest times, and my presence, a relief.

For I am a star.

For I am a star.

A twinkling, burning, dying star but I’ll live longer than you.

I’m the same as many other stars, just different in size, yet so different, but that’s something you’ll never realise.

I am a star.

You’re seeing and admiring my past, because my present you’ll never see, you won’t be worthy of seeing it.

I am a star

To those who think stars, not lovely, well they aren’t meant to. Because they have the power to burn you.

I am a star.

My past and my shine can light up a dark night.

I am a star.

I’m burning, and it’ll take me a second to destroy you.

I am a star.

And a single star like me, can turn your world upside down.

And then into nothing.

I.

Am.

A.

Star.

Hey guys!
MERRYYY CHRISTMASSSSS!!!!!!!!🎄❄🎅🏻

How are you all?
It’s been so long, since I’ve been active here. So recently in my last poem, I talked about me being a star and many people asked me how and here is how.
SOOOO
Just some random things I mentioned that have facts behind them-

  1. A pretty basic one but obviously starlight reaches us after years so we see the past, even the light of sun is from the past.
  2. The larger the stars are the shorter they live so tinier stars shine longer.
  3. Obviously stars are pretty far away, you can’t reach them, just like some people, you want to get to know them, but they are so far away from you even when you talk to them everyday.
  4. And stars are on fire so yeah.
  5. All stars are made of hydrogen and helium so basically they have the same composition, yet every star is different in it’s own way (atleast to me).
  6. Hydrogen gas makes us dizzy and helium is a deathly gas.
  7. Stars obviously don’t twinkle.
  8. Stars have a longer lifespan then the entire existence of human race.

Somehow I feel this post is wayy too sciency now😂. (I would make one of my friends so proud with such facts😂)
Anyways once again I wish you all a Merry Christmas!!

(BTW one of my close friends opened a youtube channel some time back and he would really love some support, do check it out, it’s a great one. ).

What if

“What if we all are just mere stories in a dreamers head, what if life is one in our own head, what if you are just a villain in my story, my dream, a nightmare I hope I don’t recount again.”

-Aanya

Illusions, dreams, nightmares, hallucinations. What if in reality that’s all our life is? Or what if maybe, we dreamt it all up and woke up to find none of it is real.
What if you were never really my friend, just a villain in my story. What if you hadn’t been my friend all along, what if you don’t exist and I had dreamt you up.
What if me annoying you was your nightmare and it didn’t happen, what if I was so lost in my dreams I thought you responded but you didn’t.

What if you dreamt me up, or about me, and then forgot it wasn’t in real life. What if you imagined me something I wasn’t just for the sake of your sanity.
What if you didn’t exist and I imagined it all up, all of you, all of everything and I am indeed insane in another world of reality.

Nothing is real in this world except me, or is everything real except me. What if this universe is paradoxical and I belong to a parallel one, what if one day you all turn against me, different creatures and I am the only one left, and such so in another universe, where people like me turned against one of you.

What if you all are coded to tell me you’re real and yet fill the same confusion in my mind thinking we’re the same but we’re not.
What if you want me deluded, to turn me into something I’m not, or maybe just to throw me out of your way.
Maybe you didn’t mean to hate me, maybe you were taught too. Maybe I should forgive you cause you were never really who you were, or maybe cause you didn’t exist, like now you don’t, atleast not for me.

What if all we see in this world is just our worst nightmares mixed with reality, or perhaps the good in our dreams mixed with the brutality of this world.
The world is just an illusive vision, or maybe we are unwritten characters in a writer’s mind. Maybe we are characters in a book and people are reading us like we read or maybe people are watching us in a movie hall eating popcorn, without a care in the world, with kids screaming about everywhere.
What if there is a larger and greater species than us, and to them we are just as tiny as atoms and exist like the amoeba, unseen yet studied upon by the curious.

And at the end what if nothing is real but I am, all alone in this universe just a single soul, with no assurity so as to what life is……..

Girl with pride

I’m the strong fire,
I strive in pain,
I’m the weak fire,
Because like many,
I think about my gain.

There are ups,
Then there are downs,
I extinguish,
And then I roar,
Till I am out of bounds!

You can’t control me,
Because I have already soared,
You can't stop me,
You can’t cease me,
Or you will be in the way of my sword,
And in the end I will be your lord!

I am myself,
And proud to be it,
I am strong and I am weak,
I’m a girl with a strong mind,
And I won’t be restrained,
I won’t be left behind,
I am a girl with pride!

My Sachem, My Helot

I lost control over my most prized possession,
You were it,
You were my slave,
And I,
Your master,
Your flowed in my veins,
You were the blood,
Thicker than the water of my worldly goods,
I’m lost in your mystical world,
Trapped by all the walls you built around me
And now,
You haunt me,
You tempt me,
You scorn me,
You hurt me,
You control me in your fingers,
Like a switch switched on and off,
Or a puppet in a puppeteer’s hands,
You cajoled me into being confident,
Till you crushed me,
And destroyed me,
Nothing is same anymore,
I lost my authority over you,
I can’t control the words anymore,
My only power in this world,
Gone forever….

Random Fandom Things #3

How you doin people?

I finished friends yesterday and I AM OBSESSED WITH IT!

Anyways this is mah letter to Keefe Sencen someone please use your pathfinder to deliver it to the Lost Cities, thank you.

DEAR KEEFE, WHY?
WHY? WHY?
WHYY?????????????????????????????
What were you even thinking? Argh! You are one of those perfect characters but not so perfect characters (IK I make no sense). You just seem so perfect but we all know you are broken.
We can’t live with you, we can’t live without you. You are so STUPID, yet I have no clue why do I love you so much? Why are you one of my favorite characters?
Why couldn’t I have chosen someone with IDK, A LITTLE BIT OF MORE SENSE??????? And what were you even thinking? Why did you act so stupid you doofus?
I don’t know whether I want to punch you and slap you or hug you and console you! I know that you love to hide behind jokes but this isn’t one! IT’S LIFE! It’s complicated and it’s hard, it’s super confusing ALL THE TIME and by the time you figure it out you’re dead (though elves live longer so IDK about you)! To be really honest I have no clue what it is, BUT, I know one thing, it makes us all go through roller coasters. Roller-coasters of pain, hardships, sufferings and what not, and sometimes some people more than others, BUT it is also what makes you who you are, makes you stronger and independent, AND NOW SOPHIE HAS OFFICIALLY LOST ALL HER TRUST IN YOU AGAIN, CONGRATULATIONS!
If this keeps going on, I’m never gonna get more Sokeefe and will have to tolerate more Fitzphie Pizzaz *sighs*. I don’t know how to describe my feelings (but you do, don’t you? Trust the empath right 😉 ). Please just do me one teeny tiny favor, don’t be more stupid and THINK before you do something. Wait let me rephrase that DON’T think before you do something and let others do the thinking for you please, PLEASE🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺!!! (PS I expect answers to ALL my questions, each and every single one of them, I will be checking and if you don’t well then I can be way worse than Lady Gisela)
-Aanya

Oh also I recently did a podcast with one of my goodreads friends, I sound really horrible and nervous and I fumbled a lot xD
Click here to listen to it on google podcasts and here on Spotify if you wanna!

Click here to read part 1 and 2 of the Random Fandom series!
🅡🅐🅝🅓🅞🅜 🅕🅐🅝🅓🅞🅜 🅣🅗🅘🅝🅖🅢 #❶
Random Fandom Things#2

Do you all wanna visit the lost cities?

Happy Birthday Papa!

To the one who helped with my first steps,
Taught me how to ride a bike,
Aided me on my first hike,
And sneaked me chocolates when I was grounded!

All that junk food in the car,
Even when we didn't have to travel too far,
All the fun we had,
When I was little,
And whenever I got mad;

Thank you for being there,
All my life,
Have a happy birthday papa!

Just came outta my hiatus to wish a Happy Birthday to my dad (though obviously it’ll be epic, cause I exist😆)

Happy Birthday Papa!
(PS Thanks for sneaking all the chocolates during morning practice 😉 )

Happy Independence Day

The Golden Bird
Did they call us
A tribute to all those leaders
Who were undeterred
Who got us freedom
From the Brits
A salute to all those at the border
Who defended us
When there was disorder
Thank you for all you have done
And will continue to do
Happy Independence Day!

happy independence day