Tag: Life

A bunch of things left unsaid

Potterheadaanya6 Comments 
You can’t patch up a cloth over a hundred times
It wont retain its style
You could say it feels more homely know after one or two times
Worn in and comfortable 
Just like home
But darling you can only patch it a few times
In the end it becomes a rag
Used and torn apart
Redundant to say the least
Utterly destroyed by those mordacious clashes
I know that only love can hurt like this
And you know it too
So why’d you have to hit me where it hurts the most
Because there’s a limit to how much you can fix
And even you with your smarts and intelligence quirks you teased me about
Can’t fix it all
And change it back to the way it was
There’s no magic for us
Just reality
That now we are apart 
And you’re happy now
Because you’re free
Free from me…..

There is an specific amount of times you can salvage a friendship, try to fit in or be pushy about it, but then you just reach an extent and then there comes jealousy. The jealousy which quite wisely put never has an expiration date, but one day you grow out of it just unexpectedly out of the blue you forget that a person exists and you move on and the joy that comes with it is the best.

There are no words to describe it you just stop caring kill off the character in your story and move on to a new chapter with different people different scenes and lesser but more valuable characters. In the end so many things are best left unsaid..

This past year had sooo many ups and downs and honestly there is so much I can say but then again it’s special yet not and some secrets are best when there is a mystery.

In the end both sides feel relieved when we loose someone because it’s for the best.

Anyyywayssss I’m backkk

Boards are over and I’m elated I’ll try to post more often now :)))

World Suicide Prevention Day

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Feeding on darkness
Such a delight 
My hunger is finally being sufficed and fulfilled
What a joy it is to live in this century
With humans who care
A bit too much
And then none at all
Oh this society 
Doesn't think at all
These demeaning taunts
How I feed on them all
Such joy to exist
Ebullience rushing in my veins
I think of a time when humans used their brains
Such an abomination was it when they didn't kill themselves with strawberry flavored vape
I'm elated to live now
And forever prevail
~Suicide’s musings

Thought I’d do something different and write the musings of suicide as a character living in our era.
Each year on 10th September Suicide prevention day is marked to help people and spread awareness on why mental health is important and how drugs and suicide are not the way to combat life and problems.
With each day suicide is a growing issue impacting millions in the world. Least we could do is recognize the symptoms before a person commits it and help prevent it…..

Confused is the man who takes a break
Yet is unafraid
The man might be confused
At least he isn’t dull
Temporary solutions exist
Don’t force yourself to choose the one
In which you won’t exist…….
~Aanya

An Orsa of Equality #2

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“She overcame everything that was meant to destroy her and that in itself was enough to bring a change……..”

And thus we begin again (pun intended if you got it, ik one of you will), today I’ll rant on about Double Standards in our society, since there are soo many of them that I found out, I’ll make a few parts of this cause I have over 15 of these so maybe 3 in each post?
Cause otherwise it’ll be too long and I kinda need content too so uh yeah😅 (We all will ignore the fact that I am VERY lazy)
Letttsssssgoooooooooooooo

“When a woman cries, it’s viewed as normal. When a man cries, he’s told to man up”
Throughout the world, crying is a symbol of the weak, when in reality it makes you stronger once you accept that you have feelings and suffer trauma. It’s generally said that whenever a person starts crying that person is acting like a girl because the society associates feelings and emotions to women and shows men as feelingless which is said that that shows them as stronger. Men are told not to cry because they are depicted as the stronger gender and crying is for the weak. In reality though, this world would be a better place if we let both genders express their emotions because that is a symbol of strength and accepting life at it’s best.

“A man does something it’s strategic, a woman does the same thing, it’s calculated; a man is allowed to react where a woman can only over-react”-Taylor Swift
The society has a different vocabulary for the same things both the genders do, but a match harsher one for women. They criticize those women who go against the patriarchy and question them for a change; and oftentimes in India they even comment, ‘ladki haath sei nikal gayi’ (she is out of your hands) like hell yeah, you are no one to control her! She saw how you were squashing her and she got rid of you, that’s powerful. Or maybe just those women who wish to bring the same change as men, and that’s where the criticism begins. It’s calculated in the sense that she has an evil plan when she is only doing the same thing a man did with a proper plan but has to face backlash for it.
Same is when women are called drama queens jokingly and are always said that they overreact because them ‘reacting’ is always too much as their opinions aren’t valued the way the men’s are.

“When a man says no, it’s the end of a conversation,
When a woman says no, it’s the beginning of a negotiation“
I mean do I even need to explain that?
That’s truth in itself if we paid more attention to our normal everyday conversations which we overlook.
And men are always taken more seriously which is absolutely unfair and just impractical and just infuriating okay, I’ve freaking noticed this in real life a lot times too, IT’S NOT FAIR.

And yeah, that’s it for today, have you ever felt any of these in your daily life?
PS I have more posts on this coming soon!

I am a star

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I’m a star

I am burning, I am writhing and a part of me is dying, the innocent one, the little kid.

I’m powerful, and my light shines even after years.
I’m a star. 

I am integral for life, and under my light you all hide. 

No I’m not big, but that just means I’ll shine longer. Yet I’m not small, nor is my shine or my glow, you aren’t close enough to see me shine and you never will be.
I’m a star.

I’m so far away you’ll never reach me, you’ll never know me well enough.

I’m a star.
I am not pretty because I’m raging and burning, and I AM ON FIRE.
I’m not meant to be pretty but I do so in your eyes, for that beauty, a sign of my strength and sedulous work.

You’ll study me like the mysterious fireball that I am aeons later. 

You see my past and reflect on it, dreaming about my present and my future, a pity you won’t see it, you say. You won’t be there.

I am a star.

FIlled with hydrogen, my words can make you dizzy and lose control.

I am a star. 

I’m filled with helium and you know, I’m deathly.

I am a star

What you see is a flicker of what I was, a twinkling past.

I am a star.

I look beautiful to you, even in my darkest times, and my presence, a relief.

For I am a star.

For I am a star.

A twinkling, burning, dying star but I’ll live longer than you.

I’m the same as many other stars, just different in size, yet so different, but that’s something you’ll never realise.

I am a star.

You’re seeing and admiring my past, because my present you’ll never see, you won’t be worthy of seeing it.

I am a star

To those who think stars, not lovely, well they aren’t meant to. Because they have the power to burn you.

I am a star.

My past and my shine can light up a dark night.

I am a star.

I’m burning, and it’ll take me a second to destroy you.

I am a star.

And a single star like me, can turn your world upside down.

And then into nothing.

I.

Am.

A.

Star.

Hey guys!
MERRYYY CHRISTMASSSSS!!!!!!!!🎄❄🎅🏻

How are you all?
It’s been so long, since I’ve been active here. So recently in my last poem, I talked about me being a star and many people asked me how and here is how.
SOOOO
Just some random things I mentioned that have facts behind them-

  1. A pretty basic one but obviously starlight reaches us after years so we see the past, even the light of sun is from the past.
  2. The larger the stars are the shorter they live so tinier stars shine longer.
  3. Obviously stars are pretty far away, you can’t reach them, just like some people, you want to get to know them, but they are so far away from you even when you talk to them everyday.
  4. And stars are on fire so yeah.
  5. All stars are made of hydrogen and helium so basically they have the same composition, yet every star is different in it’s own way (atleast to me).
  6. Hydrogen gas makes us dizzy and helium is a deathly gas.
  7. Stars obviously don’t twinkle.
  8. Stars have a longer lifespan then the entire existence of human race.

Somehow I feel this post is wayy too sciency now😂. (I would make one of my friends so proud with such facts😂)
Anyways once again I wish you all a Merry Christmas!!

(BTW one of my close friends opened a youtube channel some time back and he would really love some support, do check it out, it’s a great one. ).

What if

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“What if we all are just mere stories in a dreamers head, what if life is one in our own head, what if you are just a villain in my story, my dream, a nightmare I hope I don’t recount again.”

-Aanya

Illusions, dreams, nightmares, hallucinations. What if in reality that’s all our life is? Or what if maybe, we dreamt it all up and woke up to find none of it is real.
What if you were never really my friend, just a villain in my story. What if you hadn’t been my friend all along, what if you don’t exist and I had dreamt you up.
What if me annoying you was your nightmare and it didn’t happen, what if I was so lost in my dreams I thought you responded but you didn’t.

What if you dreamt me up, or about me, and then forgot it wasn’t in real life. What if you imagined me something I wasn’t just for the sake of your sanity.
What if you didn’t exist and I imagined it all up, all of you, all of everything and I am indeed insane in another world of reality.

Nothing is real in this world except me, or is everything real except me. What if this universe is paradoxical and I belong to a parallel one, what if one day you all turn against me, different creatures and I am the only one left, and such so in another universe, where people like me turned against one of you.

What if you all are coded to tell me you’re real and yet fill the same confusion in my mind thinking we’re the same but we’re not.
What if you want me deluded, to turn me into something I’m not, or maybe just to throw me out of your way.
Maybe you didn’t mean to hate me, maybe you were taught too. Maybe I should forgive you cause you were never really who you were, or maybe cause you didn’t exist, like now you don’t, atleast not for me.

What if all we see in this world is just our worst nightmares mixed with reality, or perhaps the good in our dreams mixed with the brutality of this world.
The world is just an illusive vision, or maybe we are unwritten characters in a writer’s mind. Maybe we are characters in a book and people are reading us like we read or maybe people are watching us in a movie hall eating popcorn, without a care in the world, with kids screaming about everywhere.
What if there is a larger and greater species than us, and to them we are just as tiny as atoms and exist like the amoeba, unseen yet studied upon by the curious.

And at the end what if nothing is real but I am, all alone in this universe just a single soul, with no assurity so as to what life is……..

Girl with pride

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I’m the strong fire,
I strive in pain,
I’m the weak fire,
Because like many,
I think about my gain.

There are ups,
Then there are downs,
I extinguish,
And then I roar,
Till I am out of bounds!

You can’t control me,
Because I have already soared,
You can't stop me,
You can’t cease me,
Or you will be in the way of my sword,
And in the end I will be your lord!

I am myself,
And proud to be it,
I am strong and I am weak,
I’m a girl with a strong mind,
And I won’t be restrained,
I won’t be left behind,
I am a girl with pride!

My Sachem, My Helot

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I lost control over my most prized possession,
You were it,
You were my slave,
And I,
Your master,
Your flowed in my veins,
You were the blood,
Thicker than the water of my worldly goods,
I’m lost in your mystical world,
Trapped by all the walls you built around me
And now,
You haunt me,
You tempt me,
You scorn me,
You hurt me,
You control me in your fingers,
Like a switch switched on and off,
Or a puppet in a puppeteer’s hands,
You cajoled me into being confident,
Till you crushed me,
And destroyed me,
Nothing is same anymore,
I lost my authority over you,
I can’t control the words anymore,
My only power in this world,
Gone forever….

Je ne sais pas

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Hey people!
So I wrote a poem which is directed to those specific people who expect me to know everything because I’m a scholar, who mock me when I don’t know the answer, and the ones who treat me like an answer key, they are just so infuriating……….
And those teachers who pick on you when no one can answer just cause they don’t like you……..
Oh and ‘Je ne sais pas’ means I don’t know.

Je ne sais pas,
Am I the only one in class?
All those questions,
Directed at me when no one can answer....

Je ne sais pas,
When you ask me the answers,
Is it weird that I can't answer?
Just because I'm a scholar doesn't make me a genius,
I'm human you know....

Je ne sais pas,
No, I don't know everything in this world,
And yes some facts do surprise me,
That too weird for you?

Je ne sais pas,
Yes I do learn in class,
Is that astounding for you?
I don't have google in my head,
I can't possibly know something before the teacher teaches it,
Whoever the teacher may be,
Even if I know it, 
I might not understand it,
So I do need to listen in classes like you do,
Not a super human people...

Je ne sais pas,
Why is it so surprising,
I'm a human,
There are many things I am not aware of,
It's normal,
Just accept it....

Je ne sais pas tout,
C'est la vie pour toi,
At the end of the day,
I'm a human,
I don't know everything,
Stop exclaiming when I admit it,
I don't care what you think,
I have questions,
About studies,
About life,
And so many more,
I'm not your answer key,
Because many a times I myself don't know,
I don't care what you think,
When I tell you that,
Because the truth is,
Je ne sais pas la réponse,
Je n'ai pas peur de l'admettre.....

Do you find it annoying when people expect you to know everything just because you’re good at studies?

Stay safe, keep reading!

Be a well informed global citizen!

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Yeah the title is a bit boring I guess?
So basically I wrote two poems for my school assembly few days ago (as in it was yesterday xD )
So I thought I’ll post them here, the first one was about exam preparation and I decided not to post it, but might, like IDK if I should, but this one is……
Well you’ll read what it is………
Also I changed my header!!!!!
Thank you for voting and your opinions everyone!!!

Tons of deaths,
Tons of progress,
A war fought here,
Peace bought there!

Our world goes through stages,
With tons of changes,
The fools don’t know,
What many undergo!

Things change in our country
And in our world,
Be a well informed global citizen,
And help our world!

Yeah it was super cringy, IK
Anyways, given that I am super lazy to update my divider to match my new green shade (its a duller and darker shade than the previous one oof), I’m just gonna end it here and go to sleep!

So if anyone wants me to post the boring exam one I will, for now I bid you all adieu, stay safe, have a good night (or a morning, afternoon or evening, or whatever you have)!!!!

“You’re just as sane as I am”

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“You’re just as sane as I am”

~Luna Lovegood

The freakiest words one can ever hear, “You’re just as sane as I am”.

So recently I was irritating my friend Priyamvada (who also happens to be an awesome blogger) a few minutes ago, and she was going crazy sitting at home and all, then I sent her a message “Don’t worry, you’re just as sane as I am.”

So she’s a very calm, cool, SANE and not so crazy like me, so she was sorta ranting on, cause school, oof, too much work these days, anyways, I just told her you’re just as sane as I am, and she went kaboom, so I’m just going to add a bit of her reaction (not that entire thing, no way am I going to do that).

So the funny thing, in this wasn’t how we went crazy or what, it’s just it made us realize to what extent covid is actually affecting us (if you knew me IRL you would know), so I am totally NOT going to rant on about how to keep it sane and keep us out of depression and how covid is totally DESTROYING our already doomed lives, I just going to say *realizes she forgot what she was going to say*
I’m just going to leave it here.
Staying at home is HARD.
9th grade is even harder.
And we’re all equally sane, so no worries, everyone is going crazy, even the most cool calm and collected ones!

Have you ever scared your friend like I did today?