What if

“What if we all are just mere stories in a dreamers head, what if life is one in our own head, what if you are just a villain in my story, my dream, a nightmare I hope I don’t recount again.”

-Aanya

Illusions, dreams, nightmares, hallucinations. What if in reality that’s all our life is? Or what if maybe, we dreamt it all up and woke up to find none of it is real.
What if you were never really my friend, just a villain in my story. What if you hadn’t been my friend all along, what if you don’t exist and I had dreamt you up.
What if me annoying you was your nightmare and it didn’t happen, what if I was so lost in my dreams I thought you responded but you didn’t.

What if you dreamt me up, or about me, and then forgot it wasn’t in real life. What if you imagined me something I wasn’t just for the sake of your sanity.
What if you didn’t exist and I imagined it all up, all of you, all of everything and I am indeed insane in another world of reality.

Nothing is real in this world except me, or is everything real except me. What if this universe is paradoxical and I belong to a parallel one, what if one day you all turn against me, different creatures and I am the only one left, and such so in another universe, where people like me turned against one of you.

What if you all are coded to tell me you’re real and yet fill the same confusion in my mind thinking we’re the same but we’re not.
What if you want me deluded, to turn me into something I’m not, or maybe just to throw me out of your way.
Maybe you didn’t mean to hate me, maybe you were taught too. Maybe I should forgive you cause you were never really who you were, or maybe cause you didn’t exist, like now you don’t, atleast not for me.

What if all we see in this world is just our worst nightmares mixed with reality, or perhaps the good in our dreams mixed with the brutality of this world.
The world is just an illusive vision, or maybe we are unwritten characters in a writer’s mind. Maybe we are characters in a book and people are reading us like we read or maybe people are watching us in a movie hall eating popcorn, without a care in the world, with kids screaming about everywhere.
What if there is a larger and greater species than us, and to them we are just as tiny as atoms and exist like the amoeba, unseen yet studied upon by the curious.

And at the end what if nothing is real but I am, all alone in this universe just a single soul, with no assurity so as to what life is……..

Girl with pride

I’m the strong fire,
I strive in pain,
I’m the weak fire,
Because like many,
I think about my gain.

There are ups,
Then there are downs,
I extinguish,
And then I roar,
Till I am out of bounds!

You can’t control me,
Because I have already soared,
You can't stop me,
You can’t cease me,
Or you will be in the way of my sword,
And in the end I will be your lord!

I am myself,
And proud to be it,
I am strong and I am weak,
I’m a girl with a strong mind,
And I won’t be restrained,
I won’t be left behind,
I am a girl with pride!

My Sachem, My Helot

I lost control over my most prized possession,
You were it,
You were my slave,
And I,
Your master,
Your flowed in my veins,
You were the blood,
Thicker than the water of my worldly goods,
I’m lost in your mystical world,
Trapped by all the walls you built around me
And now,
You haunt me,
You tempt me,
You scorn me,
You hurt me,
You control me in your fingers,
Like a switch switched on and off,
Or a puppet in a puppeteer’s hands,
You cajoled me into being confident,
Till you crushed me,
And destroyed me,
Nothing is same anymore,
I lost my authority over you,
I can’t control the words anymore,
My only power in this world,
Gone forever….

Random Fandom Things #3

How you doin people?

I finished friends yesterday and I AM OBSESSED WITH IT!

Anyways this is mah letter to Keefe Sencen someone please use your pathfinder to deliver it to the Lost Cities, thank you.

DEAR KEEFE, WHY?
WHY? WHY?
WHYY?????????????????????????????
What were you even thinking? Argh! You are one of those perfect characters but not so perfect characters (IK I make no sense). You just seem so perfect but we all know you are broken.
We can’t live with you, we can’t live without you. You are so STUPID, yet I have no clue why do I love you so much? Why are you one of my favorite characters?
Why couldn’t I have chosen someone with IDK, A LITTLE BIT OF MORE SENSE??????? And what were you even thinking? Why did you act so stupid you doofus?
I don’t know whether I want to punch you and slap you or hug you and console you! I know that you love to hide behind jokes but this isn’t one! IT’S LIFE! It’s complicated and it’s hard, it’s super confusing ALL THE TIME and by the time you figure it out you’re dead (though elves live longer so IDK about you)! To be really honest I have no clue what it is, BUT, I know one thing, it makes us all go through roller coasters. Roller-coasters of pain, hardships, sufferings and what not, and sometimes some people more than others, BUT it is also what makes you who you are, makes you stronger and independent, AND NOW SOPHIE HAS OFFICIALLY LOST ALL HER TRUST IN YOU AGAIN, CONGRATULATIONS!
If this keeps going on, I’m never gonna get more Sokeefe and will have to tolerate more Fitzphie Pizzaz *sighs*. I don’t know how to describe my feelings (but you do, don’t you? Trust the empath right 😉 ). Please just do me one teeny tiny favor, don’t be more stupid and THINK before you do something. Wait let me rephrase that DON’T think before you do something and let others do the thinking for you please, PLEASE🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺!!! (PS I expect answers to ALL my questions, each and every single one of them, I will be checking and if you don’t well then I can be way worse than Lady Gisela)
-Aanya

Oh also I recently did a podcast with one of my goodreads friends, I sound really horrible and nervous and I fumbled a lot xD
Click here to listen to it on google podcasts and here on Spotify if you wanna!

Click here to read part 1 and 2 of the Random Fandom series!
🅡🅐🅝🅓🅞🅜 🅕🅐🅝🅓🅞🅜 🅣🅗🅘🅝🅖🅢 #❶
Random Fandom Things#2

Do you all wanna visit the lost cities?

Happy Birthday Papa!

To the one who helped with my first steps,
Taught me how to ride a bike,
Aided me on my first hike,
And sneaked me chocolates when I was grounded!

All that junk food in the car,
Even when we didn't have to travel too far,
All the fun we had,
When I was little,
And whenever I got mad;

Thank you for being there,
All my life,
Have a happy birthday papa!

Just came outta my hiatus to wish a Happy Birthday to my dad (though obviously it’ll be epic, cause I exist😆)

Happy Birthday Papa!
(PS Thanks for sneaking all the chocolates during morning practice 😉 )

Happy Independence Day

The Golden Bird
Did they call us
A tribute to all those leaders
Who were undeterred
Who got us freedom
From the Brits
A salute to all those at the border
Who defended us
When there was disorder
Thank you for all you have done
And will continue to do
Happy Independence Day!

happy independence day

Just a quick check in!

Hello my fellow homosapiens!

This is just a quick check in, I might not be active for a few weeks or so, so this time I am going to announce the hiatus cause exams are just monsters😒.

Anyways I have a few posts written just to lazy to edit them *sighs*.

And I wanted to ask you all for a teeny tiny favor🥺🥺.

So recently I got selected for this poetry competition and each comment carries points, it would mean the world to me if you all could comment🥺🥺.
Here is the link to it!

I’ll try to be more active soon!
Stay safe!!
Keep reading!!

Je ne sais pas

Hey people!
So I wrote a poem which is directed to those specific people who expect me to know everything because I’m a scholar, who mock me when I don’t know the answer, and the ones who treat me like an answer key, they are just so infuriating……….
And those teachers who pick on you when no one can answer just cause they don’t like you……..
Oh and ‘Je ne sais pas’ means I don’t know.

Je ne sais pas,
Am I the only one in class?
All those questions,
Directed at me when no one can answer....

Je ne sais pas,
When you ask me the answers,
Is it weird that I can't answer?
Just because I'm a scholar doesn't make me a genius,
I'm human you know....

Je ne sais pas,
No, I don't know everything in this world,
And yes some facts do surprise me,
That too weird for you?

Je ne sais pas,
Yes I do learn in class,
Is that astounding for you?
I don't have google in my head,
I can't possibly know something before the teacher teaches it,
Whoever the teacher may be,
Even if I know it, 
I might not understand it,
So I do need to listen in classes like you do,
Not a super human people...

Je ne sais pas,
Why is it so surprising,
I'm a human,
There are many things I am not aware of,
It's normal,
Just accept it....

Je ne sais pas tout,
C'est la vie pour toi,
At the end of the day,
I'm a human,
I don't know everything,
Stop exclaiming when I admit it,
I don't care what you think,
I have questions,
About studies,
About life,
And so many more,
I'm not your answer key,
Because many a times I myself don't know,
I don't care what you think,
When I tell you that,
Because the truth is,
Je ne sais pas la réponse,
Je n'ai pas peur de l'admettre.....

Do you find it annoying when people expect you to know everything just because you’re good at studies?

Stay safe, keep reading!