What if

“What if we all are just mere stories in a dreamers head, what if life is one in our own head, what if you are just a villain in my story, my dream, a nightmare I hope I don’t recount again.”

-Aanya

Illusions, dreams, nightmares, hallucinations. What if in reality that’s all our life is? Or what if maybe, we dreamt it all up and woke up to find none of it is real.
What if you were never really my friend, just a villain in my story. What if you hadn’t been my friend all along, what if you don’t exist and I had dreamt you up.
What if me annoying you was your nightmare and it didn’t happen, what if I was so lost in my dreams I thought you responded but you didn’t.

What if you dreamt me up, or about me, and then forgot it wasn’t in real life. What if you imagined me something I wasn’t just for the sake of your sanity.
What if you didn’t exist and I imagined it all up, all of you, all of everything and I am indeed insane in another world of reality.

Nothing is real in this world except me, or is everything real except me. What if this universe is paradoxical and I belong to a parallel one, what if one day you all turn against me, different creatures and I am the only one left, and such so in another universe, where people like me turned against one of you.

What if you all are coded to tell me you’re real and yet fill the same confusion in my mind thinking we’re the same but we’re not.
What if you want me deluded, to turn me into something I’m not, or maybe just to throw me out of your way.
Maybe you didn’t mean to hate me, maybe you were taught too. Maybe I should forgive you cause you were never really who you were, or maybe cause you didn’t exist, like now you don’t, atleast not for me.

What if all we see in this world is just our worst nightmares mixed with reality, or perhaps the good in our dreams mixed with the brutality of this world.
The world is just an illusive vision, or maybe we are unwritten characters in a writer’s mind. Maybe we are characters in a book and people are reading us like we read or maybe people are watching us in a movie hall eating popcorn, without a care in the world, with kids screaming about everywhere.
What if there is a larger and greater species than us, and to them we are just as tiny as atoms and exist like the amoeba, unseen yet studied upon by the curious.

And at the end what if nothing is real but I am, all alone in this universe just a single soul, with no assurity so as to what life is……..

My Sachem, My Helot

I lost control over my most prized possession,
You were it,
You were my slave,
And I,
Your master,
Your flowed in my veins,
You were the blood,
Thicker than the water of my worldly goods,
I’m lost in your mystical world,
Trapped by all the walls you built around me
And now,
You haunt me,
You tempt me,
You scorn me,
You hurt me,
You control me in your fingers,
Like a switch switched on and off,
Or a puppet in a puppeteer’s hands,
You cajoled me into being confident,
Till you crushed me,
And destroyed me,
Nothing is same anymore,
I lost my authority over you,
I can’t control the words anymore,
My only power in this world,
Gone forever….

Happy Birthday Papa!

To the one who helped with my first steps,
Taught me how to ride a bike,
Aided me on my first hike,
And sneaked me chocolates when I was grounded!

All that junk food in the car,
Even when we didn't have to travel too far,
All the fun we had,
When I was little,
And whenever I got mad;

Thank you for being there,
All my life,
Have a happy birthday papa!

Just came outta my hiatus to wish a Happy Birthday to my dad (though obviously it’ll be epic, cause I exist😆)

Happy Birthday Papa!
(PS Thanks for sneaking all the chocolates during morning practice 😉 )

Je ne sais pas

Hey people!
So I wrote a poem which is directed to those specific people who expect me to know everything because I’m a scholar, who mock me when I don’t know the answer, and the ones who treat me like an answer key, they are just so infuriating……….
And those teachers who pick on you when no one can answer just cause they don’t like you……..
Oh and ‘Je ne sais pas’ means I don’t know.

Je ne sais pas,
Am I the only one in class?
All those questions,
Directed at me when no one can answer....

Je ne sais pas,
When you ask me the answers,
Is it weird that I can't answer?
Just because I'm a scholar doesn't make me a genius,
I'm human you know....

Je ne sais pas,
No, I don't know everything in this world,
And yes some facts do surprise me,
That too weird for you?

Je ne sais pas,
Yes I do learn in class,
Is that astounding for you?
I don't have google in my head,
I can't possibly know something before the teacher teaches it,
Whoever the teacher may be,
Even if I know it, 
I might not understand it,
So I do need to listen in classes like you do,
Not a super human people...

Je ne sais pas,
Why is it so surprising,
I'm a human,
There are many things I am not aware of,
It's normal,
Just accept it....

Je ne sais pas tout,
C'est la vie pour toi,
At the end of the day,
I'm a human,
I don't know everything,
Stop exclaiming when I admit it,
I don't care what you think,
I have questions,
About studies,
About life,
And so many more,
I'm not your answer key,
Because many a times I myself don't know,
I don't care what you think,
When I tell you that,
Because the truth is,
Je ne sais pas la réponse,
Je n'ai pas peur de l'admettre.....

Do you find it annoying when people expect you to know everything just because you’re good at studies?

Stay safe, keep reading!

This one is for my alsi dosts (not you Ritika)

Soo basically me and my classmates finished our VIVAs yesterday, and yeah they weren’t too great most of us didn’t study and take it seriously, so I had written a poem for exam prep cause my teacher asked me too, and now I dedicate this poem to them (and me).

To all the current members of “Apna kaam banta bhad mei jayi janta” (yes that is the group name, can you believe it?) and the ex members who left the group saying that they would prepare for exams (we all know you aren’t preparing drop the act yar) and to the members of “The ones who must not be named” (we couldn’t decide a name, but this is a whole girl’s group so it’s wayyyyy more civilized) this one is for you (not you Ritika we know you study).

Exams around the corner,
Worry in our minds,
Stop moving around like a mourner,
Go study or you’ll be behind!

You are a bud,
Which needs education to bloom,
Don’t fall in the mud,
And meet your doom!

Prepare and revise,
That’s what matters the most,
Exams are a blessing in disguise,
So in the end you can boast!

Study for your exams,
And they shall be fun,
Research the diagrams,
You’ll need to learn to be number one!

So yeah guys pad lo seriously, and with that note, I’m gonna go sleep, study.

How are you all?
What have you been upto the past few days?

xD IK that’s proof that I’ll sleep, but on a serious note, yeah I’ll go study

Be a well informed global citizen!

Yeah the title is a bit boring I guess?
So basically I wrote two poems for my school assembly few days ago (as in it was yesterday xD )
So I thought I’ll post them here, the first one was about exam preparation and I decided not to post it, but might, like IDK if I should, but this one is……
Well you’ll read what it is………
Also I changed my header!!!!!
Thank you for voting and your opinions everyone!!!

Tons of deaths,
Tons of progress,
A war fought here,
Peace bought there!

Our world goes through stages,
With tons of changes,
The fools don’t know,
What many undergo!

Things change in our country
And in our world,
Be a well informed global citizen,
And help our world!

Yeah it was super cringy, IK
Anyways, given that I am super lazy to update my divider to match my new green shade (its a duller and darker shade than the previous one oof), I’m just gonna end it here and go to sleep!

So if anyone wants me to post the boring exam one I will, for now I bid you all adieu, stay safe, have a good night (or a morning, afternoon or evening, or whatever you have)!!!!

Bookworm is NOT an insult

Heya humans!!
How are you all today?
I hope you’re all fine!

So today I will talk about Bookworms.

So I googled bookworm and this was the first result I got, bookworm being an INSULT, and I was like hold up, no way, and sometimes my classmates used it as an insult or in hindi as we say “किताबी कीड़ा (Kitabi Keeda)”.

Like yes I am a bookworm, and yes I do read too much, and people still use it as an insult, but I can tell, every single bookworm is proud to be one, and no it’s not an insult, it is a dream come true if someone calls you a bookworm.

So yes we are wretched to you, because we like to consume our time in better things like reading, which is much better than interacting to you simpletons.
We are wretched because we realise that there are much better things than indulging in your silly gossip, we know the world much better than you do, because we live in many different perspectives, we are open minded for we know how things are, and life in books isn’t perfect, it’s far from it.
We learn numerous things from books, even the fantasy and fiction you all call time waste.
We fall, we break and we get hurt numerous times, only to come back stronger, we learn to live, and we live to feel other’s pain, empathize, we learn a part of ourselves we never knew, we live as if we were the character.
All our daydreaming makes us better, we imagine and we believe and our imagination can get us out of many things you would never think off, we may not have social lives like you, and we may be boring to you, but we have way more interesting lives than you could ever imagine.

So in the end, bookworm will never be an insult, we are all wretched worms as you call us, who love to read to escape stupidity, foolishness, the corruption, the real life, but not because we don’t want to run away from it, but because we know how it feels like, we have felt the pain in every character many a times.
We choose to read despite our pain because we know one day things will get better, books are a safe haven.

So yeah bookworm is not an insult, at least it’s not for me, sometimes I think I am more than a bookworm, like I’m a bookdragon, or a bookhorse (I know this one doesn’t make sense, but horses are very fast, and I read a lot so yeah xD )

So which bookanimal are you?
Do you agree with me that bookworm is not an insult?

Thanks for reading!
Stay safe!

Chamach

Chamach, or more commonly known to people not from India as a spoon, is a very powerful object I got to say, even more powerful than the elder wand, the trident from Mako Mermaids (I’m quite obsessed with it these days xD ), or Riptide, wanna know why?
It has the power to bring old friends back together, and make them laugh (pretty sure that part was my stupidity, but eh)
So what happened was a classmate of mine (not gonna say her name) was explaining a topic to another of my classmate on our old class group (we are all in diff sections now😭😭 cause 9th grade is bad), and she asked about a chemistry doubt, so that topic was about mixtures (heterogenous and homogenous we were studying those in class) and usually we say adding a teaspoon to this much water or whatever makes it a homogenous (I think) solution, so instead of saying teaspoon she said chamach, so she was like add a chamach of this to water or coffee and it makes it this and that, and I was like (along with another friend of mine) chamach? Like dude are you okay, did you write that in your notebook cause usually we use teaspoons not a 2 chamachs of this and that to describe(she said chamachs, like thats not even a word, its chamach) (I just went to google translate and saw that it is actually chammach in english but eh, who cares).

So yeah it was literally by just a mistake she said chamach, but me being the crazy person I am made it into a joke, (it was even my hangouts status for DAYS) so from then on I spam everyone with anyways when we just repeated it like two to three of us, the rest of us kept laughing till like 10 minutes, ending the group’s silence and everything felt normal again (sorta) and I still spam everyone with it when everything goes silent, cause why not?
Even though it’s not funny for anyone, it is for us, being the crazy weirdos we are (or I am).


CHAMACH IS AWESOME PV, YOU HAVE TO REALISE THAT🥄🥄🥄🥄🥄🥄🥄🥄🥄🥄🥄🥄🥄🥄🥄🥄🥄🥄🥄🥄🥄🥄🥄🥄🥄🥄🥄🥄🥄🥄🥄🥄🥄🥄🥄🥄🥄🥄🥄

-Aanya

Anyways there is also something else I need to thank you about, and that is 600 followers!!!!!!!!!!!!!

YAYAYAYYYYYYYYYYYYY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
THANK YOU EVERY SINGLE ONE OF YOU💕💕💕💕💕

YOU ALL MADE MY DAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! (The only reason I am including this is cause Panna asked me too, like I am grateful for people who follow but these days most are spam ig? Cause the people who read are still more important than followers and since she reads my posts, I have now added this, I hope you’re happy 😀 )

And next, A BOOK HAUL (my favorite thing in the entire world)

Basically it was the HP book series cause my lil bro started reading it (and irritating me A LOT about it) and the LOTR series for me, and till what I have read till now IT IS SOOOO FUN!!!!!!!
I can’t wait to complete it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Has any of you ever done anything as stupid as I did?
Which was the last series you read?
Did ya like it?

Déjà vu

Déjà vu,
Every time I switched schools,
Same type of introductions, 
Same type of people,
Same rules, 
Same nervousness,
Certaines choses ne changent jamais

Déjà su,
Of course I know things like classes won't change,
All first days of school the same,
All classes the same,
Il n'y avait pas de différence,
Aucun que je connaissais

Déjà vécu,
Naturally I had lived it all before, 
Every time, 
Every year,
It was to be the same wasn't it?
Ça a toujours été

Jusqu'à ce que ce ne soit pas,
Everything was different this time,
No going to school, 
No meeting friends,
No cribbing about double periods like a fool,
Tout a changé

Les choses ont tourné pour de bon,
Et puis ils étaient à nouveau mauvais,
Everything started to seem normal, 
We started to slip into our old routine again,
MAIS,
Ça a encore changé,
It got worse,
No offline school again,
Covid terrorizing all,
No friends again,
All of us dreaming of meeting again,
In the cafeteria hall

Les choses ne sont pas pareilles maintenant,
Like they were,
Some changes are good,
Some bad,
Don't know which one this is,
Encore........



©2021, Potterheadaanya

Hey guys!
I hope you all are well!!!
So basically this was a poem I wrote some in English some in French, cause lots of reasons ig?
You can check out it’s translation here

Anyway this describes how I felt every time I had changed schools, and the first days of school every year, every time it was same, till the day it changed.
And how COVID-19 affected our lives, and I still don’t know whether it is a good change or a bad one……
PS check out my hate filled review of the cursed child here.

How did you feel adjusting to online schools?

I wish you all a happy day ahead, stay safe!

“You’re just as sane as I am”

“You’re just as sane as I am”

~Luna Lovegood

The freakiest words one can ever hear, “You’re just as sane as I am”.

So recently I was irritating my friend Priyamvada (who also happens to be an awesome blogger) a few minutes ago, and she was going crazy sitting at home and all, then I sent her a message “Don’t worry, you’re just as sane as I am.”

So she’s a very calm, cool, SANE and not so crazy like me, so she was sorta ranting on, cause school, oof, too much work these days, anyways, I just told her you’re just as sane as I am, and she went kaboom, so I’m just going to add a bit of her reaction (not that entire thing, no way am I going to do that).

So the funny thing, in this wasn’t how we went crazy or what, it’s just it made us realize to what extent covid is actually affecting us (if you knew me IRL you would know), so I am totally NOT going to rant on about how to keep it sane and keep us out of depression and how covid is totally DESTROYING our already doomed lives, I just going to say *realizes she forgot what she was going to say*
I’m just going to leave it here.
Staying at home is HARD.
9th grade is even harder.
And we’re all equally sane, so no worries, everyone is going crazy, even the most cool calm and collected ones!

Have you ever scared your friend like I did today?